Falling like the leaves in autumn

Wednesday, March 26, 2008
4:53 AM

Wed, 26 Mar 2008
Day 33

i feel so depressed.. i was fired from my job yesterday. my boss initially said she wasn't able to squeeze in a shift for me. and i didnt get her at first. when she finally said she cldnt keep me, i gt her straightaway.. according to her, i was lousy. and nt workin up to her expectations. i feel so used.. on my last day of work, she instructed me to do only back kitchen stuff plus clear the dishes outside. and on a tue night when waffles are half price, the shop is packed with customers. it was really hectic.. i shld have known by then why she told me to do kitchen. she doesn't feel safe letting me serve the customers and make the orders. after the shop closed at 10, i had to clean the tables and chairs, polish the hand rails, sweep and mop the floors. she was smart enough to choose a time to fire me when everybody's gone home except one. i teared the moment she disclosed her intentions. and she saw the tears in my eyes.. i had to suck the tears back in. and hide my heartache till i was home. it sucks when u have to pretend u're alright and even laugh on the way home in ur boss's car. i was so dying to go home but we lost our way.

i didnt get my butt home till 11.50pm. i was so bushed. and dirty. i smelled like milk from the waffle batter i made. and i cldnt bathe cos my relatives wld wake up and complain. i cld oni wipe myself. b4 i turn in for the night, i broke down after telling my mum i was fired. she cried with me. we have so many problems.. internal family problems, relative problems, house problems and my job problem. even in bed, i was still crying..

the nxt morn, i felt my eyes all stiff from the crying.. i started crying again.. damn.. why am i so weak? my sis realised i was crying and asked why.. she was shocked when i told her the reason. and my mum.. haiz.. she thought i was kiddin when i said i was fired yesterday. do i sound like i'm kidding to her? after all the tears i shed?!

todae we went to view 4 houses for renting. we saw one in particular that we liked a lot. but u need alot of luck to get rented houses. cos the owner chooses oni 1 family to rent to, out of SO MANY families. later in the evening, my uncle asked my mum how did the viewing go. he saw the tv news that it's realli difficult to rent a house here. one guy cldnt find a house to rent after 5 mths. this is wad my uncle commented, "aiya.. any house will do la.. dun be so choosy. if nt ur go find a hotel to rent la!" it's pretty clear THEY don't want us to stay at their place anymore. actually this wasn't the first time he made his intentions clear to us. they're DYING to CHASE US OUT.. what can i say?

Why? why must we move to australia? =( i'm tired lord.. i'm sick and tired of looking for houses. sick and tired of my relatives' whining.. i wun b getting another job anytime soon for fear of being fired again. i'm tired of us being squashed into 1 pathetic small room. no wonder we always have such a short temper lately. my assignments and projects are piling up. and i'm feeling the stress. to add up, i've a test 2 wks after my tuition free wk is over. i feel like running away.. tell me lord, tell me wad to do..

Monday, March 24, 2008
5:18 AM

Mon, 24 Mar 2008
Day 31

the weather's getting colder.. the mornings are so chilly. but it feels great to be walking out without a jacket on. hehe.. very cooling.. =D

why is it nt a surprise tt i'll mess up at work? a customer refused to pay for her ice cream after she gt me to scoop it cos' apparently i've given her the smaller cup instead of the big one. she just walked off saying she doesnt want the ice cream anymore. what the hell la.. and my boss told me i just lost her regular customer -.- oh great.. now that made me a whole lot betta..

i also gt my whole body covered in whip cream. i didnt release the gas in the cream bottle before i uncapped it and BA-BOOM! it exploded.. there goes my shirt and pants. and i still need it for tmr's night shift. oh did i tell you i could fit into a size 14 kid's pants? size 16, the largest, was too big for me >.< woohoo! haha... kidding. i'm glad i can find a black pants for my work. i thought there would be no hope. luckily i managed to find a size 8 - smallest adult size. whew~

i'm gonna watch Step Up 2 with my family tmr. can't wait! movie rates for tuesday are cheaper. i tink it's A$9.50 compared to A$12 on other days. so yea.. u guys shld b thankful that the tickets cost lesser in s'pore.

Saturday, March 22, 2008
5:35 AM

Sat, 22 Mar 2008

Day 29

i officially 'started work' the nxt day after my training. and my arms were all aching. i had to make ice cream cone batter. -.- so there goes all the mixing again. 30 eggs, 3 bags of flour, 3 chunks of 500g butter. haiz.. i made hot choco, ice choco and ice coffee too. my boss had a headache that day and i feel terrible for sayin this, but i like her tis way. she wasnt so scary.. >_<

oh! meet my new friend stitch =D my marketing grp friend gave it to me on gd friday during our project meeting cos he won too many of these in arcades haha.. so cute right? it's eating my book.. hehe..

oh, dear.. i counted. it's 246 days. lol.. haiz.. i wanna go back in july. but i'm nt allowed to. =( why??!! i saw puppies in a pet shop today and they were so adorable. jack russels playing around with each other.. *sigh.. how i hope i cld laze ard with u. i dun mind if we're nt talking. i just need u to be there.. =(

Wednesday, March 19, 2008
4:36 AM

Wed, 19 Mar 2008
Day 26

this day is just horrible.. i went for my 2nd training at gelare todae. and it wasn't what i expected. i was supposed to do a 4 hrs training but ended up working for 6.5 hrs. worst still, i'm nt paid for training. STINGY PPLE! i'm made to do everything from grocery shopping in the morning, unstacking the chairs for shop opening, wash a heck lot of cloths, make waffle batter in the back kitchen TWICE, put away the ice cream tubs order, serve customers in the front line, fulfilling their orders, clear the tables after them and putting the dishes into the dishwasher. WHY? cos i'm the only person on shift. SHIT MAN.. and apparently wednesday is the day the ice cream tubs delivery comes. and thursday is the drinks delivery and u noe wad? i "happen" to work on tt day too. &*%^%$

making the waffle batter freaks me out.. Prepare the BIG PAIL and throw in 40 eggs. mix. pour in 4 jugs of water. mix. 4 big packets of waffle flour. mix. melt 4 chunks of 5oog butter and mix everything together. after that pour the mixture into pails. i have to use a HUGELY ENORMOUS tool to MANUALLY mix. i aso need to stand on a chair to pour the mixture into smaller pails. i almost died carrying the pail with the mixture onto the kitchen top.

well, this isn't "that" bad. hell approached me when the ice cream delivery came. i had to carry almost 25 tubs of 11.4 litre ice cream into the freezer. that is enough to drain the life out of me, including all the bruises i got on my hands. When i thought all the pain was over, the 2nd waffle batter making awaits me. whallau eh.. she added fire when she said i was too slow. 1 hr to do the batter very slow mea? i take almost the same amount of time to make cookies at home and mind you, the portion is 10 or 15 times smaller than what u ask me to make. and she expects it to be done in 15 times. siao ar! u so good u do all by urself la! my arms all sore from the mixing liao..

i ended up scalding myself 5 times over preparing the waffles for customers. can u stop rushing me already??? u're gonna scare off any trainee u have. i WISH i cld have the other boss. i think my training wld have been a lot more pleasant. "i can't stand pple who are slow. u have to think fast and work fast." oh yar.. i SO wanted to tell her "i can't stand you too." haa!

and as usual, ms charmaine has always been blur. she made 3 glitches todae. and got "stares" from the big boss. i never got to eat until my training is over which is at 4.30pm. and i started work at 10am. i'm so tired.. i gtta work tmr =( i want a break. i NEED ONE.. why i so suay wed and thur no sch.. then all the more they gt reason to get me to do work on those days where the deliveries come. haiz.. this is the worst job i ever had. i want to study hard and be in an office next time. NEVER will i want to do such a job again. so stressful. and u dun feel ur pay is sufficient enough for all the SHITIFIED things u do. office still can slack lor.. haiz.. i need a hug. =(

Friday, March 14, 2008
7:56 PM

Sat, 15 Mar 2008
Day 22

God does wondrous things.. i've nv once communicated with my pri sch friends ever since i stepped out of pri sch.. but now, ever since i stepped into perth, i've talked to two of them. one being last yr and now, another one this sem. strange huh? and they're pretty shocked i'm studying overseas. of cos.. why wldn't they? stupid qsn..

i started my training at Gelare yest. it was only for 2 hrs but the amount of info two of us trainees had to take was tremondous. How to use the cash till with all of its special buttons specified for each food, the dishwasher, the cream bottle. need to noe what size cups are used for what purpose. scoop ice cream also gt technique wor! i had to scoop a few times before it's ok -.- i lousy hor.. haha.. i always thought it's just rolling the ice cream up the scooper but that's the wrong way.. my boss said if we dun get bruises at the end of the 1st mth, tt means we're nt working hard enough.. haa! aiz.. double scoop ice cream in a cone also must flip the first scoop ard. eeks! so scared i drop it. but i did fine =) i haven learn to do the waffles though. i mean, how much can u do in 2 hrs training? i aso had to learn the different types of coffee and tea. plus wad to ask the customers when they order certain food or drinks. coffee gt SO MANY TYPES orh.. scary. i nv heard most of them >.< gt milkshake and smoothie somemore..

i also had to memorise the 31 different ice cream flavours with their numbers.

1. vanilla
2. strawberry
3. chocolate overload
4. cookie dough
5. rum & raisin
6. cappucino
7. jamaican choco
8. macademia nuts
9. green tea
10. banana
11. tiramisu
12. vanilla choc chip
13. pralines & cream (i hav no idea wads tis)
14. cookies & cream
15. raspberry sorbe
16. orange sorbe
17. hazelnut
18. passionfruit
19. mango sorbe
20. lemon sorbe
21. choc chip chunk
22. blueberry cheesecake
23. -
24. apple pie
25. mint fudge choc chip (peppermint! i'll rem tis no.)
26. pistachio
27. turkish delight
28. caramel fudge brownie
29. -
30. swiss choc caramel
31. mocha chip
32. -
33. -
34. soy choc
35. -
36. -
37. -
38. honey malt crunch (Huh?)

(Psst.. i wrote all tis using my memory. hehe..showing off how powerful i am HAHA.. kiddin =p)

i still have to go for another 4 hrs training before my real shift starts on wed. hope i'll b ready by then. and charmaine. u can't afford to be so blur.. ok?

Tuesday, March 11, 2008
7:31 PM

Wed, 12 Mar 2008
Day 19

i gt the job! Yeh! i gt the job =D i'll be starting my training this fri evening for 2 hrs. training no pay de.. so sadx.. i wonder how many days of training would i have to go thru.

i'm so tired.. i don't wanna do my assignment. i woke up dreadfully, wanting so much to slp in and give the excuse that the girl's mthly thing is here. the worst thing that could happen to you a wk b4 ur assignment is due is this.. haiz.. i shld have started that dumb assignment ages ago to avoid all this fatigue.. damn.. it's too late. charmaine.. u're ALWAYS procrastinating..

Pple.. our new house is officially gone.. i thought everything was going so smoothly until.. UNTIL.. my parents had to say drop the house becos of bad fengshui. -.- FENGSHUI!!! -.- !!!!!

ok enough abt the house.. we went to view rented houses soon after the house was dropped. when all was looking good and everybody was eagerly looking forward to submit the application form for renting the house immediately, my parents had to say wait for the bank loaning rejection letter. cos by pretending the bank refuses to loan us money, we can't buy the house. so in the meantime, we can't rent a house and own another house as it's kinda illegal.. HAIZ.. then why ask us go view rented houses in the first place? HAIZ.. such a dash of hope.. HAIZ.. house house, where are you? =(

Friday, March 7, 2008
1:17 AM

Fri, 7 Mar 2008
Day 14

i like my marketing group members =) i just know we're gonna have lots of fun working together.. and i finally found someone who shares the same interest as me - BEARS.. erm.. but he's a guy.. >.< luckily he's younger than me, if not i'll think he's realli childish.

yippee! i just got a call from gelare, asking me to go down for an interview tmr. i've always wanted to work in a shop with ice cream =D plus my friend works there too. Oh no! it's gonna be a bore seeing her in sch and at work -.- i hope i get the job.. need to start earning money liao ah.. if i want to visit jor in melbourne nxt yr.. hor jordain????

i find that i've not been having proper lunch ever since i started uni. my timetable is so shitified can. Some days i must have my lunch at 9. other days 10 or 11am. or if i choose not to eat at these timings, i can wait till 3pm but that means i'll have gastric. but where got pple eat lunch at 9 de.. i dun have such a big appetite in the morning. so i end up buying snacks. i just hope i wun have gastric at work. but it's very difficult to say no when it comes to serving customers. let's just hope i dun collapse one day wahaha >.<

Tuesday, March 4, 2008
4:27 AM

Tue, 4 Mar 2008
Day 11

Pictures taken at Perth Zoo..

Mama and me =) Wahaha! She's so short.. =P

Not that i'm any taller than her.. hehe.

Wah.. Sharon act sexy nei.. hahaha.

Poor animal.. being crushed under my weight. =p

So cute rite? Just like me.. muahaha!

Everybody acting SEXY..

Presenting your Royal Highness..

Today's headlines: Monkey woman on the run! Woo woo ah ah~
Another mad woman..
Tada!

Otters! They're so damn cute la. u shld see the way they swim. So fast! and they make those cute sounds.. Tho noisy but cute heex.. =D

That poor monkey looking for a way out..

The GHOST BAT.. ooo scary!

Aiyo.. Stupid lion.. make me so tired..

Meerkats! Adorable creatures.. i love the way they lie down.. So cute!

i tink they're called newts? not sure.. haha. they're like big lizards with miniature hands and feet.

can u spot them? the iguanas on the tree branch? wao.. marvelous lei. they shld b called chameleons la. camouflage so well. lol..

The main attraction of perth : Kangaroo!!! This one looks plain lazy. Do you know they let the kangaroos run free in the zoo? U can find them anywhere!

Sharon trying to act macho! Like u can move
the rock -.- haa!

Sharon being stupid.. i emphasise, it's "being" not "trying to act".. ;) Oops!

And lastly, our friendly kangaroo scratching its backside.. lol..

Enjoyed the picture tour around perth zoo? i did..

Saturday, March 1, 2008
4:34 AM

Sat, 1 Mar 2008
Day 8

Happy Birthday To ME.. Hooray =(

this bdae sucks.. only my mum, grandma and sisters wish me in the house. my uncle, auntie and cousins don't even give a damn. To think we're related..

On the journey to Perth Zoo, i had to endure my sister's black face. Dunno what's wrong with her.. Mood swings all the time. Like come on man, it's my big day. Smile can? U spoilt my day just like that you know?

We walked around the zoo for 4 hrs. it was ok.. but i prefer the s'pore zoo. and the night safari.. haiz.. miss it. those 2 stops will be on my to-do-list when i come back in nov.

Actually i ain't feeling very happy on tis special day.. someone had to be the last to wish me. i waited all morn and aft just for tt msg but it never came. To top it up, i don't even have a bdae cake. *except a picture of a cake with 3 candles from shawn. tt's very sweet of ya. thx!*

Thank you amanda for the bear bear card. i love bears! and to chel-min for that e-card and making me try to pin the monkey's tail again when i failed. little did i noe it was meant to make me look like a fool.. haha... and thx to everyone who wished me todae =) it made me feel better..

but my mum had to tell me my relatives back in s'pore are at our place today for a gathering. =( if only i could teleport myself back home. where everyone could sing me the bdae song b4 i make a wish and blow out the candles. just like every other year.

now i know how u felt last yr during ur bdae amanda.

depressed.