Falling like the leaves in autumn

Wednesday, November 19, 2008
3:35 AM

Wed, 19 Nov 2008
Day 271

my exams are officially over! i'm so happy! im a free bird now.. weeee!!! i left the exam theatre an hr b4 it ended.. after that, met up with mum to do shopping for lotsa stuff.. my cough was soooo bad.. i tink it's getting worse. taking cough syrup aso doesnt seem to work. HAIZ.. it's like i have the urge to cough every single breath i take. so irritating.. all this coughing makes me tire easily. i dun wan it to drag any longer. it has alr been affecting me since a wk ago..

i alr made a list of wad i wanna bring back home to spore. see how excited i am? hehe.. but i haven gt down to packing my stuff. lazy ah =p

frankly speaking, i've not been feeling very great da past mth. firstly, there was stress due to exams and dear was going in and out of outfield. his wkends were aso unfortunately been spent inside army. secondly, i haven spoke to him over the phone for 1 mth. we always made it a pt. to do so every wk or fortnight =( i cant help feeling that our conversations were slowly turning into monotonous sms that were sent just out of courtesy. sometimes, i dun even feel like msg him cos it's so dry..

to make it worse, i just received more bad news. he may not be able to fetch me from the airport cos' his sis is planning to celebrate her bdae tis sun.. he said earlier on he cld, then now tis cropped up =( but family comes first la.. =( to top it up, he gt more outfields and he's on standby, meaning he has to go back on call anytime during the wkends. i'd hate it if he has to abandon me halfway thru our outing.. aiz.. but gt no choice la.. in Jan, he is to fly to New Zealand for 3 wks.

this is realli not my time.. to put it bluntly, so much of wad i've been looking forward to HOME is being thrown into the darkness now.. i'm not confident of our r/s. i'm selfish. i dun wan to 'share' my bf with the army, esp. when i oni gt abt 3 mths to spend in spore.

and u noe wad dear, i didnt tell u tis but i've to work for my dad in the meantime cos he is short of staff. so even if u hav time for me, i may not have time for u..

i noe how pissed and tired u are due to army.. but im not any far off. im so tired of tinking how much little time i have with u b4 going back to perth. im tired getting so upset over tis. i realli hope my limited time with u will b worthwhile cos' i didnt wait 9 mths just for SHIT.. pardon me for being so rude. but tis is really how i feel..

haiz.. i'm just so suay.. my 3 mths is shortened to 2 mths with u, and possibly even shorter cos i dun get to see u during wkdays. ="( sighhhhhhh....

i cant believe i spent $175 over 2 days! oh gosh.. charmaine's going broke..

*oh yea.. jordain! gd luck for ur last paper tmr! =)

btw.. just to let ya noe, my flight details are :

touch down in spore this sunday, 23 nov
5.20pm
Terminal 1
QF 77

hey guys, dun come and fetch me if ur still gt exams ok? i dun wan u to waste hrs just to pick me up at the airport when u cld have used that time to study.. all the best for ur remaining papers! KAMBATTE! =D a big hug from me to you as gd luck! sure do well de. wahahahah!