anyway, on thur, mw booked a badminton court at a community centre near chinese garden for 2 hrs. we played for 1/2 hr already so bushed le.. that tells u how much exercise we actually do get.. haha.. but we were laughing so hard until yh must repeatedly surrender, i stress, MUST roll on the floor.. hehe! so hilarious.. AND we broke 2 out of 3 shuttlecorks - the feather lost its head. the weird thing is, it was broken by 2 of the smaller size genders on the team. ming wei and ME! lol.. dun underestimate small pple ok? we gt alot of strength de. MUAHAHAHA! i was aso so hot and perspiring so much i stared at the pool beyond the windows like it was an oasis (did i spell it wrongly?) in a desert. zx had to wake me up from my dream. lol.. we shld do this more often.. =D i mean, exercise.. lol..

im back to my emo state now.. when i hav nth to do, im back to tinking abt him.. it's been 2 wks and 1 day since i last talked to him. im missing him, yet im feeling angry.. why hasnt he contacted me? he doesnt hav time to buy a calling card? no time to tok to me? no time to even bother?

i had a dream 2 days back. i dreamt tt he was back.. we were deciding which movie to watch. i wasnt interested cos' i was angry. i asked him why he didnt contact me the whole time he was in NZ.. he said he bought a calling card the day b4 he was to fly home. but he didnt use it since there was no point, nxt day he flying back le. i was heart-broken. turned away from him to face the exhibitions of qing dynasty (funny hey?). he was trying to pacify me. when all didnt work, he wrapped his arms around me from behind. i softened a lil' but still felt bitter.. haiz =(

after dinner todae, amanda asked if i was going to welcome him back at the airport this sunday. and i told her i don't noe. since i was not informed of the time and flight no. i tot we wld converse these 2.5 wks but we didnt. im too foolish to even expect a phone call.. i shld hav prepared myself beforehand.. i tink my mum must have overheard that im upset and angry and that his family wld most probably be fetching him home. out of the blue, she just blurted out that she was disappointed with him. disappointed tt he has yet to formally introduce me to his family. she went on to add, "is he serious abt going steady with my daughter?" suddenly i remembered how i tot i was the oni one who harboured that thought. how i felt it was not my position to ask him to introduce me to his family - that i leave it up to him to make the call. jordain aso raised this issue recently at neo's house gathering. am i being over-sensitive or 2 yrs together is just an awfully short time? ="(