Falling like the leaves in autumn

Saturday, June 27, 2009
6:27 AM

Today's the day of sharon's church confirmation - where she receives the holy spirit. sadly, i had to work and cant turn up =( her godparents (her bf's parents) went for the church service too.

work was super tiring.. working on a saturday - the busiest day of the week - was bad enuff, there was aso a circus next to our store. my legs and lower back were aching so badly and i still gotta make orders as fast as possible. actually i'm so tired and bored of work. or shld i sae, i DREAD work. i HATE some pple there. they're rude and mean. somehow, i was thinking to myself today while working, if they forced me to stay for longer than my expected work shift, i wld hav just stormed out and tell them i quit. cos i've church and had to rush home. and tmr i've work in the morn so i cant go church. haiz.. when they're short of pple, they treat u so nice and plead with u to stay longer. if it's not that, they snap at u.. i cant believe i actually take all this SHIT..

went to church alone in the evening cos everyone else attended church in the morning to celebrate sharon's confirmation. the archbishop specially came to host the mass and i got to see him for the first time in person and even receive holy communion from him. =) during the mass, we offered a prayer and sang a song in memory of Michael Jackson who just passed away.. the name of the song is "Heal the World".. great touching song which talks about people dying and making the world a better place. i must admit i didnt feel much for the loss of Michael Jackson until today, after we sang that song. towards the end of the mass, i felt so emotional. my eyes watered as i remembered everyone i miss so dearly back at home.. family, friends, him..

the wind and rain is so ghastly strong todae!! its like freak weather u noe.. tmr's gonna be the same.. aiyoyo..

just found out todae that my JC friends went on a trip to vietnam a few days ago.. for a while there, i was kinda upset that i wasnt invited. but i understand la, i'm so far away.. difficult to arrange aso.. but i'm feeling ok now. just that im dying to go away for a holiday too. feel so tired of everything - of work, study. but at least, i can endure them. the one thing i cant endure is waiting. waiting to go home. waiting to see and hug everyone. im slowly losing my patience. choon kiat is sooo lucky to be able to go home =(

i dun like being in perth or australia for that matter.. i've nv liked it since the first moment i stepped foot into australia to start my degree course. i've lost contact wif many sporean friends as a result and u'd expect i gained as many friends here. but the number i gain fails palely in comparison with wad i lost. the feeling is not the same either - when i go back home and meet up with friends, something feels "off". i guess distance does make pple feel differently towards each other.. its inevitable.. i wish i NEVER needed to come to perth in the first place. it's the root of all my problems.