Falling like the leaves in autumn

Thursday, August 27, 2009
8:16 AM

Thur, 27 Aug 2009
Day 188

sometimes work sucks.. it really does. some managers are just ****** i wish i can just throw the burgers at them.

i had a weird and sad dream a couple of days back. i dreamt of siew hui and me.. really very random. both of us were at the ground floor of a HDB block and we were shooting at each other with GUNS! hiding behind walls and shooting from the corners. i thought i saw ming wei at the background aso haha! and i dunno why but no matter how many times i shoot siew hui, she cant seem to die. lol.. and she keeps on shooting me in the butt!!! ahhh so painful.. then finally i managed to shoot her down and she collapsed in my arms. and when she was saying her dying words, i felt so bad i burst out into tears. i was crying so horribly and kept on apologising. and i tink in real life, my nose started to get stuffy and i couldnt breathe so i woke up from the dream.. so funny hor? i want to kill her but i feel so sad when i succeed. but why wld i wan her dead in the first place? she's my good friend! my dreams are just so random.. -.-"

i was just thinkin abt us the other day and realised that we've already been tgt for 2 yrs 8 mths but effectively, we've only spent 1 yr tgt take away maybe 1 mth because of army BMT. the time i am away from him (1 yr 8 mths) is MORE than the amt of time i spend with him (1yr)! not to mention i've to add another 3 more mths till i go back. which makes it almost 2 yrs! double the time i spend with him.. oh gosh.. this isnt helping me at all..