Falling like the leaves in autumn

Friday, September 25, 2009
3:27 AM

Friday, 25 Sept 2009
Day 219

The past 2 wks had been HELL.. had 2 major mid sem tests worth 30% and 35% and 1 assignment. realli realli super duper exhausted. not to mention, my body must have been so stressed up that i haven't had my monthly thing for 2 mths. also very sick and tired of the weather. it's 1 mth into spring and it still feels like winter. there's no hint of warmness present in spring. hais...

anyway i had my portfolio management test and 1 of the questions was worth 25 marks. it's not even parts lea. it's one whole block question! damn it.. had my finance (corporate) test today, i was physically and mentally very tired. so i tot ok, i'll buy myself mocha to perk myself up. but yea.. i've learnt my lesson. it made me very tense instead and i couldnt focus. the first 15 mins of the test i had mental block. i didnt write anything of substance on my paper. i swear i was trying very hard to concentrate. i was rushing throughout the entire paper. there was so much to do in so little time. there were 4 qsns. 1 of the qsns was worth 35 marks and the other 25 marks and they're both BLOCK qsns. wad issit wif lecturers and BLOCK qsns?! there's so much to do la..!!!!!!

i kept on calculating my stuff wrongly and realised i was mouthing wad to do cos i was trying to keep myself from falling back into the land of unconcentrateness. and each time i calculate wrongly, i kept on saying 'fuck'. realli damn pissed la. lost so much time there. then 10 mins before the end of the paper, the lecturer suddenly shouted into the microphone saying 10 mins left. scare me la! i tot pens down. when time was up, the stupid electronic timer just sounded the alarm. it sounded like ambulance alarm. so freaking LOUD! i practically jumped up from the seat. i tink everybody did too.. i've a feeling i screwed up - my answers didnt seem right, it looked weird. hais hAiS HAIS... and yea, my period had to choose to come just b4 my finance paper started. wth la.. made me even more tired.

i must be so tense these 2 wks over all the workload tt i keep on having nightmares. one of it was the buses all came late, there was a jam and i was realli realli late. oni made it to sch 1 hr after the exam started. then yesterday i had another nightmare - dreamt i couldnt finish the paper. had 4 qsns but i oni managed to do 2 =( and i was so flustered. just like i was today. i actually thought i cldnt finish it for real. but i tink i wrote alot of rubbish. all of which i dun even noe if it's the correct ans. nv been so unsure of my test paper b4.. why all finance units so difficult one?!

my draft exam timetable is out alr.. and why am i not surprised? 4 exams on 4 consecutive days. 2 of them in the evening at 6.45pm. one of the papers is 3 hrs long. boohoohoo!!!! i wish i can just pretend i finished my whole uni course and i dun need to study anymore. so tired alr..