Falling like the leaves in autumn

Wednesday, May 5, 2010
6:15 AM

Wed, 5 May 2010

something's wrong with me... lately, the things that i work hard on, fail to produce the results tt i wan.. i really put my whole heart and soul into studying hard for the test but i ended up scoring just a pass. it's not that i don't noe my stuff - i noe them too perfectly but some things are beyond my control like time constraints and hence, reading the qsn wrongly. hais.. feel like all my hard work has been wasted..

maybe i'm expecting too much from myself. i wanna do SOO well this last sem and get a high overall average. but looks like this dream is never gonna come true.. am i going to get it? am i going to reach my high target?

i'm soo tired.. they say studying in perth is like a breeze - cos its conducive for studying and u gt time to relax. lotsa time to relax. but i feel i'm not breathing enough.. i'm not relaxing at all. i'm always rushing to get my stuff done every wk and hav to work 2 days a week as well. i'm staying up against my will - both physically and mentally. even as i'm writing this, i keep on blinking my eyes becos its so painful and tired. i wan so badly to finish my studies and take a LONG DESERVED REST! who wans to join me for a trip out of the country?

last fri after my evening mid-sem exam, my mum came and pick me up from uni. we were driving along the cannington way home. and almost got into an accident. it was a pretty close shave. i must say we were very lucky. my mum believe the car in front of us drove too fast when turning round the bend. it was quite a sharp turn and hence, the speed of the car led it to spin out of control and he turned 100 degrees, making a T shape in front of us. If my mum didnt break on time, we wld hav hit it seriously.. so scary.. first time i gt into this kind of situation..

aiyo, my eyes are hurting again. gotta go back to my stuff now. toodles guys! i'll try my best to tahan dun wry! cant wait to see u all =)