Falling like the leaves in autumn

Friday, August 20, 2010
7:28 AM

Fri, 20 Aug 2010

going back to perth this time was so lonely.. =( only dad and grandma sent me off at the airport. anw, its still cold here in perth. winter doesnt end till end aug. even then, the cold weather will still drag on till nov. suddenly i miss spore's weather =(

my trip back to spore was rather fulfilling. i was glad the heart-breaking moments didnt consume me. i was still able to do the things i wan tho' not those wif him. best of all, i tried new things! i loved the jazz bar, all the food i've eaten, my new short hairstyle, kayaking, JC class chalet, reverse bungy and mac bfast wif sean =)

however, there are always regrets. regretted not being able to go drinkin wif jordain, do elderly voluntering wif zu xing, go for an overseas trip wif friends, swenson's ice cream buffet, fishing/prawning and cycling..

i finally unpacked all my stuff. besides tt, i had to clear away some of his stuff. im still upset. i tear when i read thru the cards he gave me for the last time b4 chuckin it away in a plastic bag to be stored in the cupboard. mum actually cleared away the soft toys he gave me and the artificial valentines' day flowers b4 i came back to perth. she even asked if i wanted to throw away the piggy which he made for me wif green beans inside, which looked extremely flat and slightly dirty by now. but i refused.. i tink i'm still holding on to a false hope. i haven gotten over him.

All these words abt always waiting for u, love is the most wonderful thing besides u, it's not easy to come this far so let's not end this r/s and treat me better are all empty promises. i've been hopelessly duped by a guy.. hais.. thank u for the scrapbk where u wrote the sunshine poem, the card that plays a song once i open it, the box of fragrant flowers wif ur handmade paper rose and burnt paper note, the beauty and the beast musical box from japan, the rabbit from build-a-bear workshop and the bracelet which u had inscribed wif my name and urs.

i hav to close this chapter in my life and move on. i've to open another but i dun tink its anytime soon. i dun wan a rebound guy nor make another guy wait for me. its nt worth the hurt anymore... sighhhhhsss...