Falling like the leaves in autumn

Sunday, June 12, 2011
7:12 AM

Sun, 12 Jun 2011

Sorry to all my friends who have waited so long for me to update my blog. or those who have given up waiting =p

I found it really difficult to juggle work and study life together. It was hard to breathe and I didnt have time for myself. No time for self-indulgence, just felt like a hermit crab at home. I didnt even touch my hotmail account or facebook as often as i used to.

Just glad that I've finished my first exam. Can relax a little now but there's still stress at work. But at least its more manageable with one less thing to worry about or work hard at =)

I looked at all ur graduation holiday pics =D they're awesome! Bet u all had fun! Sadly, i've never had a graduation get-away.. or maybe, I didnt have anyone to go with to start. Besides, with work and studies now, I cant even dream of getting away =(

Got the pep-talk with dad today.. apparently mum forced him to talk to me about my house contribution. She was haunting me the past 2 days about how much i gave to support the household. Made me feel like an unfilial child =( I did ask earlier on how much I shld give or a rough estimate but u didnt want to say. I asked because I didnt want this to happen. Now u're making me feel like the bad guy.

I wont say its ur fault cos the both of u arent working anymore. Now the whole family is counting on me to support them. Suddenly, I feel like I've taken on such great responsibility and a heavy burden. Wont be able to save much on my salary but I've no choice. My parents retired early and i'm the only breadwinner.

Forgive me for this is such a big shock to me. Give me time to adjust to this cos i'm suddenly earning much more but also giving away a lot. I hope u'll understand the heartache and pinch I'm feeling but I promise u I will do my job. Just allow me some time to wake up from my dream of still being a kid..